Hey there Moon-faced girl! Guess what? I've decided to leave the past behind. I know you hate me and believe me so do I, but it is time to clean up. Wash your face like I do with mine because you certainly need all that cleaning with all that jars of make-up you put on it. =)

Cheers for a brand new year! It's minutes away before 2007 comes! Hate me all you want but when the new year arrives, I'll repay you with some good old lovin'.

Muah...

I guess you're no longer that moon-faced girl I hate. =)

The Big Tree at the UST Grandstand

Hallabaloo. noun. noise. unorganized. some kind of chaos.

That's as far as I can remember. I heard it on RX on the way to National Bookstore with Papa. My handy-dandy G-tech 0.3 ran out of ink and the tons of homework can no longer wait so we have to drive there just to get a new one. Bulok na kasi kaya 'di pwede refill. Hehehe :) I have postponed schoolworks far too long. As tintin would say, "pure procrastination".

Going back, I wouldn't mind saying everything is hallabaloo for me right now. You know what, IT IS hallabaloo right now. Don't worry, I am fine. Somehow, this chaotic state has sobered me enough to realize that my life isn't and can't be as perfect as I want it to be. Ooh, that's deep... :D Nice.

Aside from having nothing accomplished, I have broken a tie that knots me and the smartest boy in class. I think you don't have to be a genius to figure it out. Of course, you might want to know the reason and here's what we're going to do, ask me when I get in touch with you. You can ask but that does not guaranty you'll get an aswer. OMG, I forgot the spelling of guarantee/guaranty. Silly me :P Haha

BTW, I got bangs. I cut my hair and all I can say is that it is tolerable and I kinda like it.


On top of the world.


Before Paskuhan



Tintin's Burpday! :D


Sorry nakalimutan ko magmake-up. wasted.


Thomas Aquinas Research Complex. The Place to work.


paskuhan :D



Green.. sila :D


Sorry guys! :D


Me and Tanya

Thanks to Au for letting me sleep sa house nila :) tradition na!

Why do I feel that I'm the only one who's having a hard time adjusting to everything? I no longer have anything to be proud of. Everything is a mess lately and I can't seem to accept it.

I do my best in everything but the results tell otherwise. I cannot seem to get it. Why do I have to fall short when I have given everything I have? And then I think about those who are effortless yet they seem to get fancy rewards for their mediocrity. Then it occurred to me: Does that mean my BEST is equal to the MEDIOCRITY of others?

What am I then? A mediocre version of another?

Ah, I feel so pathetic. I've never felt so pathetic. This semester has been very hard on me. Everything I've worked for, for the past 3 years, is just wasted on one semester. Everything is flushed down the toilet as they say. Worse, it's only me feeling pathetic.

Yeah, I'm a misery-loving company kind of girl. I want everybody else to suffer the same fate as I do. I won't be a hypocrite and tell you that I'm happy for everybody else while I weep in the corner alone self-pitying. Pardon for being so blatant but hey, that's me. Sorry, it's just me feeling bitter and jealous.

All right. I'll stop on the self-wallowing now. Cheers. It's a Happy Season.

Okay, Happy Season is over. I have to face reality with tears on my face because I'll know, that whatever I do this semester will always be inferior to someone else's.

Tsk tsk. That's just me being honest.

CHEERS to a pitiful me on top of piles of papers on a Holiday season with no hope of having high grades =)